was unprepared
The First Time I've been "here"
am Prepared
The Last Time I WILL be here.
DATE: Groundhog Day stuck on 1984 mode with Czar Bush
acting as the NWO god
and people actually vote and clap for him?
Im.............
Going somewhere, no one knows.
Who would know?
And why would I believe them?
Truth is not too hard to sell
Its a be ing here experience in motion, all the tIMe
Traveling into the future..?
Mastering its design
(does it even need a design? designer)
The Truth is not too hard to sell
Pranayama style
Would you considered a Truth
if you never considered a Truth?
I dream about those 2 people
nightmare-ish
both chasing me or with guns
talking about me. jeering
Its their right to hate me
Its natural.
All 3 of us did IT
but I was the one that fucked up the deal
i was the one that went behind backs in search of
some different out come, and truthfully something more
Dangerous. the result took me to many different places,
many different dangers. I let them down but I got out,
was it worth it?
yes.
I dont live my life standing in the back
gotta make a move to get out
details are the many stars
its better to see the whole sky, sometimes
for what its worth: I do feel bad about that situation
girls.
I wonder if they dream about me
Sleep becomes overrated
I'll french kiss the morning
on the roof with a joint and no shoes
I'll watch the sun come up from the tree line
I'll breathe it in
this is when birds wake up
cars passing and kids walking
the morning always starts slow
nocturnal elements are now mist
and we live to see another day
up and down
and i stand still
Trading a mind for a better one to smash the hold that control has over us
order, masturbation, self control, reliance, defended
they will scream at you until you take noticed
for all i know..
we are all on different levels of understanding
so dont scream at me on my level.
unless, of course, youre on it with me
its all different from me to you
here take this pill
here watch this thing over here for a bit
here read these ones too
everyone is changing
the more I change, they change
All sitting here trying to run
to somewhere
better
what else is there
without these hopes?
a multi-suspect on a dose of insanity.
lately, its felt sane. with undercurrents,
a sea of psychic sludge in the way
between this and us
that first has to be reached
then crossed
then forgotten
we make it so hard to know each other
when all i want to do is to show you me
and to see you coming forward-Golden-
and when its time to watch us leave
Im not sure how I'll feel
///////////////////////////>~~``` go ahead...sssspark it
ethereal
esoteric
ether
energy
enough
so what else do you want?
kudos for your ego?
cookies for your statements?
I get it, and now what?
I figured you out the first time.
pre dick ta bull
theres:
Big ones
Small ones
Tiny ones
and ones I dont even see
All I see is the frustration
and dream -like words that
end up all in your head
and then
time to regurgitate all of what you know- without considering what you dont
know
time to spew the minutia of shit that comes out
take a look, man, take a look at that
the ones that cant educate themselves
the ones that are hung up on an ideal of whats acceptable
and whats not
and who are you to decide who is not and who is?
Sure, it helps the external life
but the inner life is completely different, aint it?
its beautiful?
its beautifully fucked with
fucked up people walking around?
before I answer
I'd ask them first, to see where they are.
you never know when youre gonna get it
the big IT.
23 grave steps so far
to the BOX, you know the End of all this
dont trust those white lights at the end of the tunnel
do trust those lights
dont
do
anything
its all a learning process
I've known better days
I've known better people
secretly knowing I know I know nothing
its taken me years to acknowledge that.
you can type out anyones life
you can say anything you want
you cant always make yourself believe in it tho
I just really want to be free
why stay with the camel, pyramids, and palm trees?
flip it over and stay at the hotel.
busted lips and carpet burnt knees
make reservations for the subconscious motel
because cigarettes live on after I die
dolphins will still jump
relationships will always lie
and my throat, when talking to you, will always have that lump
this um is a letter to|
someone i know that i dont know,|
you know?|
its better that way|
___________________|
FDA?
Tell me when you wanna take off
I need your gravity
yours?
Another pill, itll cure
the common mental deficiency
common?
after we know all of everything
Rules and laws are passe
Pills and cures are laughable
and me and you are unshacked
and jacked
lts easy to forget people
a notion from an isms motion
reminds me
only to help me forget another one
it makes no difference. its already done
its ridiculous
same thoughts everyday
by chance, something different occurs
always back to the same, tho
if you dont know
you know?
now maybe you know
bo
its the price I pay
its the 1% off when I turn 65.
life is full of strange things
things you cant put into simple words
and theres no harm in trying.
trying is all we ever do
best friends can become strangers
People in cages can become sages
and I dont think it will phase us
either way its not yet contagious
if you know what i mean
if you know can hear that music without
words to fuck it up with
and if you dont,
dont worry
me either
"Look I cant work for yall if I cant 40 or more hours a week. Part of
wanting to work here is cuz i was "promised" 40hours and I not getting that
here..."
"yeah, sure ok we can get you more hours."
today, my dayoff, with 43hours of pure labor behind me-
"hey? can you work today? someone called in, Kevi; he broke his hand."
"yeah I know he broke his hand, that's why i closed for him last night after
working all day."
"oh, so can you?"
"um... sure."
damnit! why did i pick up the phone!
I just cant look at it anymore
if life is a mathematical chance or methodical equation of chaos
and variables of different factors and molecules hitting each other
then,
so be it.
I've watched the curve of the chin on people
I've watched that curve move up and down to lie
such movements should never be seen from such lovely people
but who the hell am i to say that?
my chin moves up and down all day
I drove home today
taking a left to avoid the site
of an accident
not today boys, not today
no need for blue lights
with high minds
(I was telling you all this)
But did you hear me?
Feelings with built-in words
told with a new feathery, mysterious language.
Have you ever met me before? in someone else?
you can lie, I dont mind
rehearsed many times before
but with you I'm gonna let it flow
a disclaimer:
I try to keep it completely honest
but some things cant come out.
just turn the fucking music up
forget about it
lets fade in and out
I'll take solo glances at you
pull my hat down to talk
and watch the smoke slide around us seductively
only to disappearance into the void, without a sound
we could do that.
predictability is always a factor when I talk with people
but with you, but with you, but with you
you're so very special to me, to me, to me.
its the beginnings butterflies fucking with us
I do notice when you're not around
its the new emotional event, the climax between us
the finding out about each other
its the awkward silences after a long story is told
its kinda like... go stop go stop
did i say too much?
I cant say enough
its all the same in the end
its all the same during it
its all the same in the beginning
goes back to where ever it came
and so do you and me and them
its true
we all just see it totally different