It was as if I was outside of Me
watching this person Anonymust
talking and it shocked me
to see how I act.
A cool shock
A weird shock
Cuz outside looking in
....... looked really different
I love when life shows up like that.
so, maybe I DO like everything, but I dont like all of everything that requires "all stuff"
so yes and no and really theres not enough information.
THIS here NOW with this here now YOU and this here now YOU with this here NOW ME
You never have to listen
To anyone about anything
Clear my mind
Clear my throat
I’m ready to react
Ready to implode and explode
Which ever happens first
Which ever comes last is what I recall
I told her ‘stop playing the victim’
She brought up the point of me saying “you never have to listen.”
And I said Touché!
She said I was a sucker for anything opposing my ideals
I said …. Sure.
And so what?
Whys it always gotta be politically correct
And mainstream in order to fit.
Take those emotions
With those faces
- those feelings
And shove it up your ass.
Its just my twilight time.
Living in the shadow of myself
Mere shadows to something Greater
Waiting for pitch black,
Its been so long since I’ve seen the sea
of Black without interactions.
Waiting for the dawn to yawn.
and I will it ignore it
and it will it ignore me too
A crashed car
With a potato on my shoulder
One more day on the verge of over spilling.
Beach volley crew with their societal vendettas
Parties with only the coolest types
Conversations melt into the daylight evenly
Beer bottles and cigarette butts are the remains
Pretty sitting kittie
With the golden eyes
Road tripping with broke speakers
on the way to the Promised Land
of natural high fiber filler and
untamed inertia pushing me.
With or without regard
Depending on the situation
depending, arent we?
depending to be defended
living life in a paranoid state of mind
but the oppressed dont know
that their greatest defense
is their mind.
how about those crazy bananas?
It starts off like a rock song.
With a little acoustic solo
Cuz there’s nothing new to talk about with stupid little words
Physical always opens me up to a new world
Today we dropped out
Drum beats in….bass comes from the west
The hand goes south
minds on auto pilot climbing north
East with a hurricane on the way..
I’ll steal for him
Because he steals for me
Another one day stand
With the light on outside
Dark and heavy inside
Another one night fall
With recherché movements
Giving my body up
Him the Taker
It was this new surprise with the loose knots
I couldnt understand my role in this twisted delicious game.
Cant ask Cant move, aint tHis position familiar.
His Fornasetti Apollo silk tie and shiny shoes were still on
"I want you to listen..."
He sits next to me and watches my body flow towards
his as if magnates are meeting.
and I looked vulnerable this way. For the first time I felt it too. in my belly.
"this is not a game. You dont require thought. You are, for all of my time,
Mine. Your body is obviously mine..." as he 5 fingered F**K traced my body. The old tan lines, slowly.
"Close your eyes... and even more then you think, I also own your mind, which is hard for you to accept. You are here because I chose you and you willing came, to me."
He then bent down, I could feel his weight coming towards me, he kisses me on tip and touches me down there.
My body contracts. Involuntarily. My arm got loose, heading towards him and out of no where his hand slams mine into the head board.
He's now very close to my face, I'm breathing heavy, flushed.
Still holding my hand firmly on the head board,
he knows- he goes "mmmm, youre such a good girl."
dont you believe in it?
it was short, you and I,
just like your golden temper
selfish acts leave me self less
aint this position all too familiar
I did eat that apple
I do eat that apple
whats up adam? or whoever
I do lie, I will lie
dont you die
til I can get around to apologize
I just wanna have my life for myself right now
seems like most of everyone is a prop in the corner as
I take that suicide opening between the two trucks to get in front
and away from these rats in their self made maze(s)
birds got their limits too.
freedom is a state of mine
state of mind
the time is over
I dont care if youre right
I dont care if Im right
good eventually brings better.
safe and slow
fast and faster
its all for the new things
can you believe we last forever?
no expieration date baby
I will see you there
this one is small
no need to feel inferior now.
watching it dance around
i gets it not.
but it dont matter
you already created it
now it can never be uncreated
mother giving nature a face lift
take a sit on the big round chair
look around, light up, begin to stare
hear a chain saw
walk around to the front yard
see right neighbor
wave, spark, smile, leave
walk in front door
walk out back yard door
sit, pet dog
so, how are you treating life today?
I once took a train
I never got off, I rode it for hours
talking to an australian surfer while he was tripped on blotter
with huge black eyes and a constant smile
we figured out a lot of things
and after I got off at a random stop
I think god or whatever (never mind) awoke inside me.
In the streets once with Sarah
we came upon a dog laying on the ground, panting
with his owner waiting for him to get up
"he..has..can..cer..he die soon."
so we pet the dying dog
our hands touched at times
its funny, the moments that are so beautiful
can be forgotten, so easily
every past step
all has lead me to this exact point of now,
and it all means something.
even from looking at a stranger in traffic.
and it all means something.
something like that.
but not even close